For real tho….

You know what just realized? Like within the last few days? My last two posts have had the same intros..... Lame yea? yea...

The worst part.... It is something that I have thought about multiple times within the last few days since the last post went up. Something I despise as a trait in myself and have made conscious decisions and actions toward no longer doing.... but for some reason, in the place I am creating for myself to be as real as possible, I am still doing it.

I KEEP APOLOGIZING !!!!! WTF MAN... for real, why?

This is something that I will need to continue to work on obviously....

Anyhoot, this week's update looks alot like laundromat runs, smoothies and The Walking Dead.

Laundromats

Have you ever spent time in a laundromat? I have spent my life utilizing laundromats. I grew up in a home with a line to dry your clothes on, a fireplace with a BIG hearth to warm clothes in the dead of the winter, and a dryer to use once in a while because it was too expensive to run the power. So we ALWAYS used laundromats, it was easier to load all of the blankets, afghans, quilts, and big heavy towels into the back of the truck and run to the laundromat. My mom would spend the day, washing and drying and folding and reading old Readers Digests and napping (lol). She would turn some music on the old radio in the shop and I would dance around, and race each other through one door and out the other and around the building. I spend hours sitting in the tree in front of the main door just watching the world pass by and dream of all of the adventures I would take once I was a grown up. Now... years later, I still use the laundromat. A few times a year you will find me sitting in one, reading old Readers Digests, listening to music, daydreaming the day away while I wait for the heavy blankets and the household linens to wash and dry and be folded perfectly. I find the whole experience humbling, nostalgic and a welcome day of rest. Van joined me this time, and while there was no dancing, or racing, there was breakfast and a show, which was lovely. Even more lovely was how nice it was to have him carry the laundry baskets to and from the car 😎

Smoothies

2 words

MEDICAL MEDIUM

Have you heard of him? If not, give him a quick google, he is all about eating for your body to resolve long lasting illnesses. Getting to the root of what ails you and giving you back your life. I have utilized his methods for myself years ago to regulate my hormones and more recently William has been using the detox protocol for the last 6 months and while his whole life has improved. SOOO back to the smoothies... I recently started following him on Instagram (@themedicalmedium) and noticed he has released a new book about brain health, and some of the recipes are freaking fire!!! About two weeks ago I started to have a smoothie a day from the book and want to tell you that I feel amazing. The brain fog that rolls in has been lifting and I am feeling more clear and focused in my days. The seasonal depression (the realness of this is something I am not apologizing for or excluding from my own truth any longer) has not fully escaped me but is not as thick and heavy as it once was. It is more fleeting than life stopping and for that I am very grateful. Is this all because of some magical smoothie? who knows..... but the correspondence of adding this into my daily regime and the brain fog lifting does not go without notice.

The Walking Dead

Years ago I watched the first few seasons of The Walking Dead. You remember it right? The AMC original about zombies.... right... yes.. okay so we are on the same page. So back to the point. I watched this show weekly, I would have to wait until late at night when Van was fully asleep and I would have to listen to it with my earbuds in. The show had some of the best visuals, like award winning makeup and design. But for me the scary part was the sound effects, the noises that they created for the sounds of the "walkers" were sooooooo good. Seriously soooo freaking good. That was the worst part for Van though.... the sounds that they made would haunt his dreams, soo if I wanted to watch then I had to watch when the babe was asleep. Now here we are, five, six, hell maybe even seven or eight years later and he has decided that his newest binge worthy show is going to be The Walking Dead. For real, who doesn't love a good zombie flick? This is more than my teenage son not being scared of zombies anymore but a true testament of the passage of time that he is no longer my baby but becoming a young man with his own interests and there is literally nothing I can do but mark the passage of time with silly things like The Walking Dead………

So there you have it, a window into my life, random yet so basic, and so welcome. As we move forward into the season of gratitude and giving and we all get so very busy as we all do, I wanted to tell you all, it's okay, you can stop apologizing, you are doing so well and as always you are enough.

XOXO,

Billi Rae